-:: Suicidal Ideation ::-

The Science Of NIGHTMARE 

I just arrived home from paying my smartBro bill and turned my PC on. Just as I opened my Yahoo Messenger account, the first glance I made to my friends and classmates’ statuses, I immediately noticed the 7 letter of miseries in our life : to the p - h - y - s - i - c - s !!! Would you have me defined it for you? Physics is a subject where you become problematic, psychotic and your nose will bleed with 1000 cc of blog, hemorrhage, so to say. It requires you a blood transfusion! Got it? We have been suffering this subject for quite a while now and it seems that it won’t leave us alone even if the semester has reached its finale.

It is not proper to say we hate it, we don’t really hate it, we don’t hate the teacher, it’s just that its so difficult to understand and It’s a very challenging subject. Without much psychobabble to make, I’ll go straight to the point. I got an average a prelim grade of 80 point something (78 posted in online; an error maybe), midterm grade of 85, a final grade of 88 and a disappointing average of 84. I should say my grades are not bad but I was longing to reach an average of 85 to qualify for the second honor and avail the tuition discount (hahaha!), not to mention my scholarship which I jeopardized twice this time. I’m really not in the thing of being an achiever but I just want the discount, hehehe. It’s not bad to put it that way. After all I made a great effort to make it but I guess I just can’t. I can still say I’m contented with it and I guess that’s all I can do for now and maybe I deserved it considering my attitude towards the subject. In addition, I really don’t expect to get the over all average of 90 to qualify for the second honor because I guess I’ll get low average grades in almost all my subjects (I missed quizzes…) What I’m worried about right now is my scholarship. I heard that CHED scholars need to maintain a an average grade of 85 for all subjects, which is really hard to do. I already messed with it last sem and I think it will become successive (oh god i hope I’m wrong!)..hahaha…

The Accepted Unaccepted

After the incident of the Physucks, I mean Physics nightmare, I got myself into this bizarre smorty thing. When I opened my email, I was so happy that I could forgot the previous event. The Sentence "Your Blog Has been Approved" was shinning and glimmering in my eyes. Oh great, another source of income. Just as I celebrated, I didn’t notice the email next to it, "Your Blog Has been Declined". I was startled and bewildered with this phenomena. I mean how could they send me an email informing me that my blog was accepted and send one again that contains ironic message? wtf! Are they playing a stupid game with me? They better not! hmp! I’ll give them hell of a spam if they do. Hahaha. To confirm this, I opened my smorty account and the last message was really true, they just rejected me recently accepted blog. I can’t do nothing about it so what the hell, I just accepted it. An oh, before I forget, let me tell you that I intentionally posted this topic here because I dont want smorty to know about this, this post was supposed to be on my Konoha_shinobi:: The Hyuuga Prodigy blog. If they know about this, they probably reject my blog regardless how many post I have there and how many times I submit it to them. And because this post is pretty long and detailed, let me give you a intermission number: PLEASE VISIT MY BLOGS AT

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The Return of the Comeback

You may not have noticed it, but I tell you I got this stupid lifetime illness, ASTHMA. Damn it, I could have just a simple cough. This stupid thing in me is driving me crazy each time it attacks it’s really gross spitting out slippery saliva (It’s not phlegm though). Hahaha! Well, I know a thing or two about asthma. Asthma is a chronic condition (generally associated with humans but also controversially being diagnosed in house pets such as cats) involving the respiratory system in which the airway occasionally constricts, becomes inflamed, and is lined with excessive amounts of mucus, often in response to one or more triggers. I got that one from wikipedia(hehe). And for Konoha Shinobi’s definition, it is an illness that you never ought to have and the last illness you would ever want to have while living, because if you have it, then you are considered UNFORTUNATE, and so am I of course.

I’ve suffered from this illness since 4th year highschool and it really gave me a hard time. Whizzing sound at dawn making you sleepless, making you cough at almost once every 5 seconds, and most of all shortness of breathe accompanied by scratches on your throat. It comes and goes, then strike back again and vanishes. In my case, I experienced this for a year and it suddenly disappeared. Now, my greatest fright, the sum of all my fears, has just hit me again. Oh God, I won’t last my days having this illness, please take it away or take my breath and life away -::SUICIDAL IDEATION::- I just hope it will leave me soon and never come back again. Oh damn, if only I am a real shinobi, a medical ninja, I could have healed and cured this in just some sort of hand seals and chakra manipulation.

 

  Well. that’s all about it. I just hope, everything is gonna be alright.

 

TRIVIA

- This is the longest post I ever made 

- This post contains 1039 words. Check it for yourself. hehe…

- If smorty and sponsoredreviews would pay for this. I would bid a hundred bucks for this. Hahaha!

- You have visited all my other blogs before you got here!  

Well guys, hello there. I know that it is pretty obvious of how desperate am I to level up my PAGE RANK! I have tried every possible way to achieve such goal and here I am now, as a classmate of mine suggested that I should register my blog to some sites. And so I already got a Technorati Profile! Yehey! hehehe. . . I’m hoping that this would make the situation better and my page to become famous and more visible! That’s all about it. And lastly, I know there are LOTS OF DESPERATE HIGH PAGE RANK ACHIEVERS WANNA BE there, so I hope you don’t mind if I’ll also suggest Technorati. . . Let’s just hope for the best! emoticon

August 28, 2007 — Owen Wilson’s medical emergency Sunday was an attempted suicide, a log of calls made to Santa Monica’s 911 line confirmed.

Reports of the distraught actor being found bloodied and dazed after overdosing on pills and slitting his wrists circulated Monday.

Sources told The Post that Wilson, 38, tried to take his own life after a bitter blowup with a close pal.

The tow-haired, Tinsel town hunk was discovered at home by a stunned fam ily member Sunday.

The log, first obtained by Extra TV, shows the 911 call was received on Sunday at 12:08:16 p.m. The incident was "cleared" almost five hours later at 5:07:16 p.m.

The log doesn’t indicate who made the call Sunday, but lists "attempt suicide" as the reason for it.

"It’s hard. He’s such a wonderful person," one source said. "He’s such a great guy and so smart and just . . . nice. We’re just hoping he gets bet ter."

Wilson — who was listed in stable condi tion at Cedars-Sinai Medical Center in Los Angeles — released a statement through his representative re questing privacy.

"I respectfully ask that the media allow me to receive care and heal in private during this difficult time," said the star of "Wedding Crashers."

Cedars-Sinai spokes woman Cynthia Harding confirmed that Wilson "is here and in good condition."

The actor had been transferred to Cedars-Sinai from St. John’s Hospital in Santa Monica after having undergone detox for the apparent pill overdose and surgery to his injured left wrist.

He will likely remain under the close watch of doctors for at least the next several days, one source said.

Authorities were alerted to the apparent suicide attempt after someone called Santa Monica police, and an ambulance raced to the home just after noon Sunday.

There were no details as to what may have caused Wilson to go off the deep end, except that the incident occurred shortly after a vicious quarrel with an unidentified friend.

Wilson’s last serious romantic relationship — with beauty Kate Hudson — fell apart just before Memorial Day.

Hudson had been spotted over the weekend very publicly canoodling with handsome new love Dax Shepard, but sources insisted that it did not contribute to Wilson’s emotional turmoil.

Wilson’s family rushed to his hospital bedside.

His older brother, Andrew, appeared worried as he left the Santa Monica house and headed to the hospital early yesterday, one neighbor said.

His famous younger brother, actor Luke Wilson, was already at the hospital, said a source. Other visitors included actor Samuel L. Jackson.

Wilson’s uncle Joe, who shares a house with Owen, said, "He’s fine, and the family is doing great."

One neighbor said that when she heard the ambulance, she was surprised because Wilson never causes any trouble.

"All the neighbors like him, he’s a friendly guy. He never has any crazy parties or does anything wrong," Betty Miller said.

But Wilson, 38 - who always appeared to be a happy slacker type - has a dark history of depression.

"It’s very upsetting. People are complicated. It’s not just one thing," said a friend of the actor.

 

 

Suicidal ideation is a common medical term for thoughts about suicide, which may be as detailed as a formulated plan, without the suicidal act itself. Although most people who undergo suicidal ideation do not commit suicide, some go on to make suicide attempts. The range of suicidal ideation varies greatly from fleeting to detailed planning, role playing and unsuccessful attempts, which may be deliberately constructed to fail or be discovered or may be fully intended to succeed.

In a study conducted in Finland, 22% of the suicide victims examined had discussed suicidal intent with a health care professional in their last office visit.